And I spent an obscene amount of money on the foodstuffs for today, but I don't regret it.
(Ok, maybe a little, but not much.)
It was just me and my husband for the holiday this year, so we decided to spend the day in the nude, watch the Macy's parade, grill steaks instead of roast turkey, play video games, have sex, nap, and eat cheesecake in an unhurried manner.
I'm thankful for everything in that paragraph, but I'm going to clarify. I'm thankful that I have total body confidence around my husband, and he around me. I'm thankful that we have a glorious and effortless sex life. I'm thankful that my husband doesn't mind watching the parade with me (I LOVE parades). I'm thankful we can play video games together and enjoy it. I'm thankful that I can cook and that we can afford to cook quality food for this wonderful feast holiday. I'm thankful that i can take downtime when I need it. And I'm thankful for delicious desserts that I consume in comfortable quantities with no guilt. There are so many things in my life that I am really thankful for and happy to have.
In years past it's been a rough holiday. Both my folks have passed, and at the holidays it can hurt unexpectedly and be triggered by things I wouldn't expect... but not this year. When I laid down for a nap my brain calmed down. For once I was able to drift off without the anxiety parade, was able to truly appreciate how much I have, and able to enjoy it. For right now, life is so good.
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